十月的夜晚有點冷，零晨我們在百德新街頭告別。跟離開東京時一樣，他揮著手目送我們離開。
已經不是第一次，在家以外的地方認識一個跟自己一樣的人。沒經驗的人會笑，「你想像力太豐富。」可是遇過的人會知道，那是一種最奇妙的感受，是一種外人無法明白的親厚，跟一個陌生人。如果你相信我們是*割裂的靈魂，那麼就是這一個個「我」完整了我。可是他們散落在世界各地，觸不到就是觸不到，三年等一個擁抱，每次告別都心撕肺裂。
年輕時說再見我總是最先哭，哭得最亮。簡單一句再見給我弄得如死別。我不願意離開喜歡的人，害怕忘記快樂的時光。去旅行用的肥皂、牙刷總是收起來，好好保存一個笑一行淚。哭過後倒頭便睡，睡醒後又去追另一些快樂。那時候不會想什麼「永遠」什麼「一生一世」，咀邊總是掛著「time is always now」，當然也不談擁有。
不知什麼時候開始不再哭，分手時也學著其他人優雅地揮手，轉頭又繼續熱熱鬧鬧的生活。可是夜裡輾轉反側，睡不著。年紀輕身體好，不介意日夜魂牽夢繫。現在卻無法負荷日以繼夜的牽腸掛肚。多麼累人。開始想到要「擁有」，想把他們都留在身邊，然後可以好好睡一覺。
一個人，一本書，一首歌，一個電郵，一齣電影，把我擊碎一片片，散落地上。
*"Jesse: Okay. Well, this is my thought. 50,000 years ago, there are not even a million people on the planet. 10,000 years ago, there's like 2,000,000 people on the planet. Now, there's between 5 and 6 billion people on the planet, right? Now, if we all have our own, like, individual, unique soul, right, where do they all come from? Are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls? Because if they are, that represents a 5,000-to-1 split of each soul in just the last 50,000 years, which is like a blip in the earth's time. You know, so, at best, we're like these tiny fractions of people, you know, walking... I mean, is that why we're all so scattered? You know, Is that why we're all so specialized?" - Quote from "Before Sunrise",
