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You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Take a look at the questions. "Shooting a gun sounds: a)Dangerous; b)Fun", "You curse: a)So much that you hardly notice it; b)Occasionally or never", "Time for a new car. You pick out: a)Something powerful; b)Something cute". So I supposed if I think shooting a gun sounds fun, and I curse so much that you hardly notice it, and choose a powerful car, then I'm a 100% male!? Do you still need this kinda reference KC?

What I learn from last night

Being someone who thought she's good at acting but actually worst at it, honesty is probably the best, or the only way of communication. The idea of speaking out my mind which may upset others upsets me. Yet speaking something that is not true to my heart usually upsets others, in a far worse way. The possibility of ruining the relationship by being honest totally freaks me out. But the acting soon fails (sooner for people who's bad at acting), and the truth will just explode in the ugliest way which no doubt causes more causlities. To 'protect' others from my 'mean' thought by not speaking out is simply bullshit. Thing that is unpleasant will always be unpleasant, no matter how hard you try to delay it. So I think I'd rather cut it short, and shout it out whatever it is on my mind. At the best time and the best place with the best wine I'll spit it out. Upon my own decision, in my way.

媽媽的秘密

小時候很愛挖鼻，一覺得沒有人看見便挖鼻。於是每次媽媽背著我在廚房洗碗時我便挖鼻。可是挖不了多久她便會說：「唔好再撩啦，流血架啦。」然後我便會驚訝地叫：「點解你咁都知0既？！」並懷疑阿媽背脊有眼。 媽媽中風後改由老豆煮飯我洗碗。換了我背著媽媽，她在我背後說話。一次正和她絮絮地談著，抬頭時忽而在水喉旁邊的玻璃窗看見媽媽的倒影｜｜她底著頭，一句沒一句的說：「你大個囉，唔駛阿媽洗碗囉。」 發現了媽媽的秘密，原本應該很高興。我卻呆呆地，流下眼淚來。

自我感覺良好

感覺良好不是因為已經「很好」，而是感覺「可以」很好；不是因為已經「擁有」，而是感覺「可以」擁有，甚至「可以」擁有「更多」；不是因為已經「到達」，而是感覺「可以」到達；目的地不是更高更遠的地方，而是一個我現在無法想像的地方；並不充滿力量，可是因為感覺「可以」變得有力而強大。因為未知而不會忘形興奮，可是因為「感覺」而非「相信」而平靜。沒有很多個出口只有一個，可是感覺那出口是一個出口，而不是一個機會成本或逃生門。 我開始明白自己名字的意思｜｜可，可以，這份存於根本的可能性令我感覺良好。