上班的時候忽然想起 Being bored，曾經以為今生都不會忘記，今天卻一句也說不出來，只會咿咿呀呀的在哼音。I thought I would never find myself being bored.
"Being Boring" Pet shop boys
I came across a cache of old photos
And invitations to teenage parties
"Dress in white" one said, with quotations
From someone's wife, a famous writer
In the nineteen-twenties
When you're young you find inspiration
In anyone who's ever gone
And opened up a closing door
She said: "We were never feeling bored"
'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end
When I went I left from the station
With a haversack and some trepidation
Someone said: "If you're not careful
You'll have nothing left and nothing to care for
In the nineteen-seventies"
But I sat back and looking forward
My shoes were high and I had scored
I'd bolted through a closing door
I would never find myself feeling bored
'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end
We were always hoping that, looking back
You could always rely on a friend
Now I sit with different faces
In rented rooms and foreign places
All the people I was kissing
Some are here and some are missing
In the nineteen-nineties
I never dreamt that I would get to be
The creature that I always meant to be
But I thought in spite of dreams
You'd be sitting somewhere here with me
'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end
We were always hoping that, looking back
You could always rely on a friend
在校門前碰見個多月前退學的學生。他染了一頭金髮，很刺眼。看見我，像舊時一樣，寒暄了幾句。可是，那笑容已不再輕佻浮躁。為什麼總是叫孩子們要正經？他們是孩子，當他們正經的時候，他們就不再是孩子了。
為什麼總是要吃苦才大？不吃苦大不可以嗎？
看「入世一週年」，談保險業在中國的未來發展。我不相信保險，因為人生那麼無常，一份保險可以給我的保障太少。什麼plan保金多少都不能保證我愛的人不會比我早死，也不能讓我病的時候不那麼痛苦。然而昨天看到 SimJuliette 的短長線儲蓄退休金計劃又覺得自己很短視。原來我對未來的無知程度遠遠超出我想像，準確地說我對未來沒有一個具體的概念。最接近「未來」的東西對我來說是今年八月，因為那是暑假，要置新裝，除此以外，我真的無法想到其他實際的東西。未來，想起這兩個字就覺無力。我不相信計畫。還未來的，你說我可以怎樣？
有一個人，他很自私。他從來不在乎別人的事。他只在乎自己。每次他開口說話都是談自己。「我想跟你吃飯」、「我想見你」、「我想聊天」。可是他從來不理會別人是否開心、失意、疲倦。他總是為了滿足自己。每次跟他見面，我都會問：「你好嗎？」。可是這麼些年來，他都從來沒有回過頭問我一句我可好。有時我覺得他有一天會變。有更多時候我覺得他不可能變。即使他真的變了，也未必會變得更好。我只是想，為什麼有人可以如此自我陶醉，到一個地步對別人的事毫無興趣？又或者他只是對我沒有興趣？而我，只是一直在自討沒趣。
