What I learn from last night

Being someone who thought she's good at acting but actually worst at it, honesty is probably the best, or the only way of communication. The idea of speaking out my mind which may upset others upsets me. Yet speaking something that is not true to my heart usually upsets others, in a far worse way. The possibility of ruining the relationship by being honest totally freaks me out. But the acting soon fails (sooner for people who's bad at acting), and the truth will just explode in the ugliest way which no doubt causes more causlities. To 'protect' others from my 'mean' thought by not speaking out is simply bullshit. Thing that is unpleasant will always be unpleasant, no matter how hard you try to delay it. So I think I'd rather cut it short, and shout it out whatever it is on my mind. At the best time and the best place with the best wine I'll spit it out. Upon my own decision, in my way.