I've grounded myself for a month. It was depression at the beginning. I just wanted to stay away from the entire world and concentrate on my family. Instead of collapsing in isolation I found myself doing surprisingly well. Before I knew it, it's already 2 weeks. Then I continued the isolation in order to save up for my easter holiday, and I actually started to enjoy it. In fact, sleep well+eat well+no cigar/alcohol=better skin+overall fitness. I wake up in the morning and see myself smiling at the mirror. Last time I saw it it was 15 months ago. Of course there were moments when I craved for KFC or a fag, but I got through it much easier than I thought. I start to think that maybe I'm mature enough to suppress my daily desire in order to achieve a bigger goal, e.g. supporting a family/ going on a trip/ studying aboard. In this case, the time of 'suppression' was only one and a half months. But could I make it if it's 3 months, 6 months, 1 year or even more? Could I still be smiling at myself if I'm suppressing every little desires for a long period of time just hoping something greater might be achieved?
